Good.

It’s good. It’s all good. And it is scaring the crap out of me because it’s like we’ve not been apart for 20 years and he’s not free to be mine yet and there’s no telling how long his divorce is going to drag out and he appears to be the same sweet guy he was way back then but there’s an edge of bitterness to him now that breaks my frickin’ heart. (ok. I’m breathing now.) We talked about his kids. There’s still a lot left to talk about in that regard. We’ve talked about serious shit and shit that doesn’t matter at all. All I know is that I want to spend more time with him. Lots and lots of time. I want to know if he’s the same sweet guy he was back then…not just speculate about it.

I’m glad he tracked me down (so very, very glad) but at the moment, I can't help but think it might have been better for my sanity if he would’ve waited until after the papers were signed.